Memories of Adaku 4

The cold air hit her face as she opened the door and stepped out of her room! The surge of adrenaline made her feel like she had taken a drug but it was usually like this. She needed to calm her nerves down but unfortunately for her, she had left her drugs when she was in a hurry to leave the city. she had gotten addicted to taking drugs and had long been hiding under her psychologist prescriptions. Well, it was the high time she did away with them.

Not like it was her fault she got addicted to them in the first place, she thought to herself. Who would know the nightmare of a life she had lived. As far as she was concerned you have to do what you have to do to survive. That had been her slogan after she lost her dad at eight and her mom was suddenly struck with stroke.

It all happened like a blur!

The sudden change from having both parents and a happy family was one she wasn’t ready for. Her dream of becoming a star was slowly taken away even as she sat and watched her mom incapable of taking care of her and her younger ones.

She could still hear her mother’s voice like yesterday

“Adaku, always know that you are special and different from others”

She wondered what her mother meant till date. Maybe it was really true that the elders saw into the future. She was definitely different as she had to shoulder a lot of responsibility at a tender age.

Her younger ones will never understand!

She would always be an outcast to them. She remembered the last conversations she had with her little sister.

“Sister, why can’t you have been like any normal sister?”

She just stood there. She wasn’t going to defend herself.

“I can’t have friends as they all say my sister is a murderer, I don’t want to have anything to do with you”

Now that hurts but she wasn’t going to let her sister see her pain. She did it all so they could survive. She always told herself mom would be very proud of her now. She had tried as much as possible not to let her life affect that of her siblings. That’s why she had told them never to pay her a visit in prison, not they cared one bit. Aunty had made them feel she was the reason she was now a widow.

That conversation still had a way of causing her pain just like it did that day. Was it her fault she couldn’t be normal. Life decided to write her life script in a twisted manner but it was too late to scream at life. All those years of pain and now finally Bayo was like a compensation from all the years of hardship, she hoped she could have a life with him.

It wasn’t easy for her after she got out of jail but Bayo was the reason she got out in the first place. Immediately she got out he bought a Jamb form for her, enrolled her from her senior WAEC which she couldn’t write with her mates. She held him in high esteem. They had started their relationship in her final year. The day he asked her to be his girlfriend he walked into her room looking very tense. She had thought it was his usual routine visit but he had come to tell her he was interested in her. 

Her friends seemed to think that the age difference was just too much between her and Bayo but they didn’t know where she was coming from and who Bayo was to her.

That was one of the very best decisions she had ever made to give Bayo a chance.

She made her way to the stream. She used to like coming here as a child. Maybe the water will help clear her head today. As she walked through the narrow steep part, she slipped and fell with her head hitting a nearby rock.

Her short life played before her eye as her lids gradually closed and she drifted away…

***

The white bedspread was stained with blood.

They needed to stop this bleeding they had tried all they could

They were losing her

1,2,3 Beep

The nurses moved around frantically each trying to be of help

1,2 Beep

she could hear them all shouting but she could also see her mom and dad

She wanted to hang on

For Bayo and her siblings but she couldn’t

1, Beep

Darkness

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By Ebuetse Mercy

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